um...infact,ihatemyself
Ihatethefactwhichisthat I‘mstillalive
soasyoucansee，
iamlooklikesobad
iamnotagoodgirl,butialwaysavoidthistruth
ifsomedayigodead,thetruthisthatiamgodeadforthesucide
ihavenofriends,
ialwayscheatmyselfthatihavealoverwaitingforme
ifeelhelpless,ican\'tfindhim
wheniam5,iwanttobeapainter
wheniam14,iwanttobeascientist
wheniam16,iwanttogodead
butnow,iam17
butican’t